Tuesday, October 21, 2008

School

I sit here in class wondering about my fellow students..
i hear about people going to jail
about the parties
drugs
sex
all of it..
i wonder...
letting my thought stray never really works
it takes me to the past
a past i try to forget
but why should i
it shaped me and made me
it scares me
i could easily fall
the part of me that is weakest is where i fear ill mess up again
what is this 
where is this taking me.. 
a new ministry
an old one
the girls that need help 
need my past
why 
why does God work this way
will it stop
does the pain 
fear
expectations
Lord help
the confusion overwhelms me
the tears don't stop
i guess i just leave room
a miracle
a healing
a hope
a joy
a love
a peace
a ministry
not just for me 
for my girls
for my friends
for the students of VHHS


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