so today is tuesday. i havent done this in a while but i feel like right now i need to get my thoughts out... well whats up there anyways....
emotions.
love. joy.
anger. hate.
frustration.
worry.
hope.
numb.
excitement.
peace.
loneliness.
what do these have in common.
absolutely nothing.
except that something cause them.
people.
things.
cirmcumstances.
chance.
past.
future.
whatever it is.
it has left me.
its gone.
where are the emotions.
im
emotionless.
college
is
filled
with
emotion.
except
i cant find mine.
they've run away.
i remember a time
where my emotions ruled.
i cried
when
"he"
broke my heart.
when
"He"
saved me.
when
"i"
found my way.
when
"they"
loved me anyways.
i remember.
i remember the way i felt when
"you"
touched me.
when
"YOU"
rescued me.
when
"they"
held me.
and my world fell apart.
i remember the night.
i moved out.
all alone
with no hope.
and i wonder where the emotions went.
i remember seeing
"her"
cry
at the pain of her father.
i remember hearing
"she"
died.
where have the emotions gone.
because i dont feel them.
because i dont see them.
because i dont want to.
maybe
yes.
no.
i like emotions.
im comfortable there.
but maybe
thats it.
college.
breaking away from your comfort.
breaking away from what you
know.
knew.
experience.
witnessed.
a brand new
everything.
fill me
with desire.
i want to know
YOU.
and be known
by
YOU.
maybe i
am about
YOU.
dont
YOU
have
emotions.
dont
YOU
hurt.
laugh.
smile.
cry.
love.
hope.
maybe im wrong.
but what if im
right.
what if
this one time
i figured
it
out.
what then.
i may never know.
im not sure i want to.
because then
then
there is beauty
in the unknown.
there is hope
in the curiosity.
there is love
in the awakening.
maybe.
just maybe.
i figured this one
out.
