Walls

im so tired of this.

getting my hopes us..

then them fail. 

its horrible

why is it always like this.

why do i let my heart get like this

i try.

so hard.

but something happens and the walls come up

guess what world

the walls are up.

and its going to take an act of God for them to come down

because i dont want to let them down

no 

why should i let them down 

just to get hurt again.

id rather pull into myself

the tears come

but not for anyone anymore

the pain comes but 

ill keep it to myself.

im sorry

i just cant trust anyone anymore.

i need Jesus to do a miracle.

i need love

i need words

i need hope.

therein lies my answer.

but i cant find it.

and im searching so searching

but where is the hope

i know where it is.

i dont feel it

and i keep losing it.

i cant grasp it

LORD?

"in this world you will have troubles, but take heart i've overcome the world."